losing the touch and back

now, shouldn't we start with welcoming me back?

:)

seriously, right after the closure i thought it'll be best to remain that way. No i was supposedly wrong! i had no other venues of ramblings and venting out my issues and worked it out that writing's the way for me. Though i guess i will keep this site from other's prying eyes and naughty ill intentions!

Oh well, life hasn't been easy (It never did!). And thanks to that someone who told me not to blog cos it's stupid to let people read bout your life. I did, I do but you never knew anyway, doesnt make a difference does it?

a little surprise it maybe, but honestly i am really tired, exhausted from all the chasings, trying-hard-to-please, be-what-u-want-me-to-be all these long years. i just wanna be myself at the end of the day and find my inner soul.

indeed we have lost the magic.

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Your Relationship is Dangerously Weak

You and your guy are headed down a dark path... unless you turn your relationship around. You have to ask yourself if this relationship is worth saving. Because at this point, it looks like it's not.

How Strong Is Your Relationship?

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Analysis from Colorgenics:

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace. Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that you break down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you are quite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential to your self esteem.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

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